by Hana Fri Feb 02, 2018 9:28 pm
Hana would stare down at her covered being, as she still sat upon her bed. She would feel a sense of disappointment well up within her, as her brother pointed out her flaw within her lie. Disappointment, not in the fact that she had failed, but disappointment in the fact that she had even tried. "Y-Yeah. You're right. I'm sorry. I-I just don't want you to worry about me because you already worry so much. I just want you to worry about more important things without being burdened," her voice would say small and shyly knowing he would be upset in her reasoning. Nonetheless, he would kiss her upon her forehead, which would make her happy but would make her heart sad as well. She loved her brother no doubt, but she wished sometimes that maybe he wouldn't come back. Sometimes, she felt that running away would be her best option. Sometimes, she felt that maybe if she disappeared, he could focus on important things that she knew plagued his heart. Sometimes, she felt that maybe if she could find a way for him to forget, that their lives would be much more worthwhile and fulfilling. She was a burden and she knew that. No matter if he loved her or not, she was just a heavy rock tied to his ankle as he tried to reach the surface of the water for air. She was just a small, weak animal that he was trying to save when her death was inevitable.
The girl would rise from her bed carefully as not to make things too strenuous for her body. She would do so successfully, as the two wandered towards the food her brother had made for the both of them. If there was one things Hana wouldn't complain about, it was her brother's cooking because she certainly couldn't. She had never had the strength or the time to be taught how. She was always busy being sickly or having surgeries done. She was always too busy in bed and being a burden. However, Hana knew that being down in the dumps about it wouldn't make much of a difference, so she decided that she wouldn't ever talk about it. She would keep it hidden down within. As they had reached the food, Hana would smile warmly noticing the simplicity and the unhealthy treats in between the bagel. "No fruits today, Kai? It must be my lucky day," the girl would say eagerly and cheekily at the same time. She loved when she was given treats rather than the same boring fruits, vegetables, and whatever else the doctors recommended. Yuck. Nonetheless, she knew they were just trying to keep her healthy.